All Your Pretty Faces Hide Demons Inside.

year-end showcase.

2009-12-19T10:42:00.002+08:00

Yean

Keem.

Azzi.

Aiman.

Mirul.

and, ZulLe.

will be performing tonight :D
8pm.
Indoor stadium :)
catch us thereeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

every breath.

2009-12-19T00:03:00.004+08:00

I just had one packet of mee sedap and I'm full. Alhamdulillaaaaah :D

anyway, I just got back half an hour ago from.. let me recall- I woke up early today, wasn't feeling well so I went for a check up at the hospital to find out that I had food poisoning :/ ... after two hours at the hospital, I went to have my lunch at TK, and didn't even eat half of my meal 'cause tummy was being.. bitchy towards me :( haha.

and then, went off to Keem's? yeah. was there from 2, jamming with the boys for two hours and then.. went off to Deanna's Restaurant at night with the rest of my circles ( they came and surprised Keem, he just turned 20 last.. wednesday or was it tuesday? I am so lazy to count the date so they joined us :P ) heee. annen, went jamming at Esquier for an hour. I think it was okay :) we practised less than a week, wait.. we only practised.. 4 times? :| but I trust each one of them, we will do okay, InsyaAllah :)

then, went off to Gadong and met them Nis and fii with the boys for a bit then went home, not exactly, 'cause we were in Rimba, and Keem headed to his place and just remember he had to send Azzi's macbook, so we turned around and headed to Azzi's, gave him his macbook back then sent fae home then went off to Keem then Fae tetxted that she wanted to get her shoes in jerudong so we went to pick Fae and went off to Jerudong and back to Rimba again. haha.

and I am still feeling unwell. I hope this pain will go away soon, I'm still feeling sick.. and I just had my meds. Gonna go off to bed soon :) tomorrow will be one busy day.

and Abang just texted me on msn telling he'd get me a ticket to KL. for March. :D:D:D I am so happy, I wanna travel with my brother.. be how little adik is supposed to be. heee. no lah, I just miss abang a lot :) havent been spending time with him.

gonnaaaa go hit my bed now. I was gonna type "head" instead of "bed". lol.
naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanighttttttttt!

written on the bullet

2009-12-17T23:53:00.005+08:00

headache. bad one. the one that tears your eyes 'cause your head, it really hurts.

anyways. I just got back home from jamming an hour ago. today jamming was a bit.. I don't know, like something was missing? maybe because one more person didn't show up but no worries, he was sick :) so we, the rest continued anyway.

just hoping to do our best on Saturday. I am performing under my band's name, THERMALcollision but only me and Keem are the original TC's :) the rest are our friends, helping us out :) thanks guys!

and I haven't done any random manipulating, 'because I am currently working on something before the end of December. and I am excited for the roadtrip I will be having with my circle of friends :) it'd be awesome. I will make it awesome. My friends will make it awesome :)

I should go now. this headache is really killing me :(

2009-12-14T21:04:00.002+08:00

like you would change at all.
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Lets see what I have this week;

Jamming on Thursday and Friday after work.
Friday is holiday. I hope to spend my time resting before going practicing with the band.
Performing on Saturday at Indoor Stadium's car park.
Meeting on Sunday at a Cafe with friends' band.

:|

I wanna re-do it.

Jamming on Thursday and Friday after work, and go out with my circles after that.
Friday is holiday ( I hope the holiday is not on Monday :| ) and spend my time resting ( sleep and watch movies ) before going practicing really hard with the band, and have some fun at the same time.
Performing on Saturday at Indoor Stadium's car park and seeing my friends after that and go out til late.
Wake up late and go to a meeting on Sunday at a Cafe with friends' band.

better :D

and spend the next week on more photos, recording and get ready for the circles trip to.. somewhere :D

paint you blue.

2009-12-11T00:15:00.004+08:00

got to see these two girls today, the long talks have always been the best part.
love you two!

and Izzul just uploaded photos today :D

painted.

2009-12-10T00:02:00.003+08:00

at this point, this very second, I really am lost :)

but then- It's up to me.
I am the one who lift up my own smile,
the monster of my own thoughts.

okay, maybe I'm just feeling- unwell :)

the bright side of-

2009-12-09T02:47:00.001+08:00

my eyes say enough :)

kotak.

2009-12-08T17:36:00.003+08:00

I just updated my tweetdeck 'cause the notification kept bothering every time my laptop was on and ahaaa, I see no different.. except for different icons.. and gaaah, I'm so lazy to update myself for now. anyway, HI. heeehe.

I just got back home from work and work was okay today. I got to talk with the two new girls today, they thought Afif was my boyfriend. HAHAHA. so I said, No? and they were like, "siapataaaaaaah? denganmu satu kereta hari atu?", (referring to Daus) ya ampun! nooooo! :| kali dorang macam, "siapatah boyfriend mu ani? yang selalu telefon kau atuuuu?" -_______-" "kawan ku banyak boy, aku nada boyfriend..", "ekseeeeeeeeen mu!" bah eksen tah naaaaah. I wonder what they would think of me if they happen to see me with my circles :| ..."BANYAK JUA BOYFRIEND MU!" hahahahha. *catches my bubble thoughts*

I don't know what I really miss the most. I can't picture the time I really was smiling and make my heart skips a beat when I think of it. I guess there's too many of 'em :)

hee. love you. love me. :P:D

nisramli.

2009-10-31T10:11:00.005+08:00

29-10-09
Happy belated 19th Birthday Nis.

♥

you're so cranky and bossy.
but you're Nis, the place I always turn to,
in both good and bad times.
you're funny and cranky, again. haha.
but you're Nis, the one I will always love.
you argue like there's no ending, always leave me feeling bad :(
but you're Nis, the one I will always trust.

fudge it. you're my forever! :D
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so last Thursday, Nis asked me out like twice but I rejected 'cause I am currently broke to the core right now. I told her I'd comeover and that I was having a band meeting when I actually went to Ezul's with Awan :P kami watched Hostel and Eurotrip dulu. haha. then at night, we gathered. Tammy, Jeez, Ezul, Fayen, Awan and myself. we got Nis a small birthday cake and candles haha.

around 10pm we crashed Nis' place. Fayen, Ezul, Awan and I went out of the car laju laju when we reached her place and tapuk belakang Nis' house and it was funny pasal my heart was racing macam kuda lari lari :( haha. Tammy and Jeez greeted Nis at the door while me and the rest went to Nis' room through her window HAHAHA. and the sister saw me and screamed her freaking heart out HAHAHAHA, twas funny tho. then we all masuk sekali prepared the cake and the candles and tutup the light. we're prepared. I texted Tammy and they dragged Nis in her room kali awww! surprise! we all nyanyi birthday song. cali. Hadee and Mila came afterwards. we all hung out til 2am? loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee it! :D

worth while

2009-11-06T09:19:00.004+08:00

Jamming on Wednesday went well. During my very last song, we all were hyped up, its fun to joke around once in a while, hee. annen, we went to have our dinner at Deanna's Restaurant near the airport mall, haha, I remembered the name 'cause it's pronounced as my name :p

I had this tumpi-liked food and it had beans and kismis dalamnya, nyaman but it tasted weird :| annen, went back to esquier jamm studio. Hadi came and jamm while I grabbed the chance to rest my eyes and sleep :p jamming finished at 12.30am and I arrived home safely around 1ish and sunk into sleep :D

early on that day, Nis took me out and we watched MJ together. He was a really soft-spoken guy, I wish more guys are like that soft-spoken, that would probably, heavenly pierce right through my heart everytime they speak. haha.

Yesterday was awesome too. I got to go out for lunch with Faeiqah Nabilah, Al-Aqib, two of their friends, Tammy, Qush and last but not least, Ezul. what more awesome was I got to eat my favourite Jollibee's beef burger with cheese, haha. I stayed longer with them Tammy and made more inside jokes. annen, I went home and rest. hee.

It rained lastnight, but that didn't stop me from going out. I wanted to jamm but didn't go so I went with Tammy, Ezul and Qush again. it was full of LOLgasm. I'm really glad that I have friends like them who happen to make my day everytime I see them. went home at.. 1am? :| cali ah how I was awake when we sent Ezul home and then the second I open my eyes, I was at home tia sudah. haha. sorry Tammy, yean tertidur. penidur sudah :( ill get enough sleep later and prepare for tomorrow.. insyaAllah :P 'cause later malam, I'm seeing Keem, Fae, them boys, NIS, please ah please haha, and of course, the boy of why I can't stop smiling, Awan :D

I'll have a superb weekend and make every second of it worth while and you should too :D you only live once, live it to the fullest, people :D

BTW, I am so amazed with my new gelang, it's a tali and when I tie it arah my hand ada 7 colours! brown, maroon, yellow, green, purple, blue and pink. no shiz mang :p Ezul and Tammy have the same gelang too :D

you know, when I fall in love, I hardly fall out, but that doesn't always mean I'd stay and it isn't a surprise if you'd do the same thing too. we werent born to be constant, the picture gets distorted once in a while- but just so you know, you leave me breathless and I cannot care less 'cause it happens all the time.

*sudden hugs everyone!

have a very nice day, readers! :D

2009-11-14T14:59:00.004+08:00

I can do so many things with long hair. hahahaha. anyways, talking about hair, I've taken my cd from IA saloon already. I'm gonna post one two photos and that's it, alright?

hope you guys like it. and yes Ive been MIA. I hardly find free time now, pasal free time untuk sleep :P heheeee. but I feel loved.

I'm going to an event later tonight, I hope it's on, cause I didn't get to reply my friend's text yesterday :| haha. bahh, hope you guys have a fun weekend :D

a little patience.

2009-11-27T19:52:00.006+08:00

senyum itu sedekah :D

Beautiful things happen when you least expecting them. It always excites me when the things I get are beyond my expectations, and I thank Allah for every good thing that happens.

I know I get annoyed easily towards things that from my point of view are very stupid to even think about. but I know I can't always make people think they way I want them to think. you can't always make people think the way you want them to think. I forgive and forget, but I have learnt that not all people are like that. I could spend all my day crying and be really okay the next day but people are not the same. sometimes I care too much about my friends, I push them. I have good intentions, but I do it the wrong way. I get that a lot. but trust me, every human wasn't born mentally strong. they believe and have faith, and that break all the walls that come crushing them. so why can't you?

I am feeling a little spark of anger within me. I would let this out, but not when I'm still filled with unstable emotions. I don't want to end up spilling out things I don't mean. Just a little thing that happened today and that has been going on for a while, people continuously look down on you. sabar saja :)

I'm going now. Ezul's going to pick me up at anytime soon :D
off to Qush's place!

scissor hand.

2009-12-01T21:44:00.006+08:00

finally, a new cover :D

yes. apparently, I couldn't stop myself from cutting my hair. straight cut really... really.. not for me. and so I chopped it off, I had fun eventhough the result was a complete disaster but I thank whoever created hair wax, you've officially become my life saver :P

before :D

I feel like hugging somebody :( and there's karaoke going not far from where I live and ayoyo, dari tadi dangdutaaan :|

I think I'm gonna watch movie now :)
loveeeee.

reasons.

2009-12-03T11:15:00.005+08:00

Sometimes it got me thinking why, why you are making this hard for me when you made it easy for the others? but then, playing fair does not count when it comes to this part.

There were times I wished you'd say the things I want to hear. It engulfs me, this wooziness. I've always wanted to be the girl that made a difference in someone's life, but I am tired of risking the only thing that keeps me breathing, the only thing that is honest and you're not showing the effort I want to see. I am not giving up.. but having to do the same thing over and over again really doesn't excite me. but then, again, I wouldn't want to risk this.

I don't want to screw up my face, trying to figure this out but I can't stop myself from wondering what difference it would've made. I've gotta escape from this rambling thoughts, it sickens me to think of the worst that could ever happen, not that I don't always prepare myself- or I'd be nailing down on my own coffin lid.. lol.

and truth to be told, somewhere, down inside my state of being entangled by thoughts that are slowly eating me up from the inside and flowing like tiny sharp glasses in my veins, I just want to breathe easy, without being tied up with whys and more whys. and Ive gotta do it on my own :)

baju gamis nis yang I loveeeeee to pakai :P:D
hahah, random.

HEEEE. yosh! :D

falls into place.

2009-12-06T11:32:00.006+08:00

4th December 2009

triple date! :D

I came late on our date, on purpose pasal I was being cranky. It wasnt my fault that I was really exhausted from work. I took a day off the day before and when I came in to the office, I found out my desk was full with paper works and scraps and I could only remember I left it clean and tidy the two days before :( so I had to rush and finished up everything, not that it was a must to do, but at least I don't have to keep 'em until Monday :)

and during lunch hour, I went to Aziim's place and watched Saw 6. crazy maaang. it was blooody gore :|

and I almost puke again.

5th December 09

DST carnival! :D

was with Tammy, Awan, Izzul, Keem, Fae, Fayen, Sas and Sas' friend, Nisa :D

I kept my camera in my bag at almost all the time cause Fayen brought her camera along as well :D she has more pictures of us lastnight :D

and fireworksssssssssssssss were... bloody amazing as always! :D
loveeee! :D

time and patience.

2009-12-03T22:54:00.002+08:00

my recent works :) I hope you guys like it.

stock images - DA.

before and after-s :D

goodnight :)

halfway to believing.

2009-12-03T01:34:00.003+08:00

RE-DID THE COVER :D
dont mind the "by Yean Mok" haha, I forgot my "A" at the end, didnt bother much to do something about it :P

yes, in the store room. I took the chance to do this quick cover right before Tammy took me out for a movie with Fayen, Izzul, Qush and Madd.

and guess what, Ninja Assassin was hell awesome. except for the most parts that almost made me puke the shizzle outta me. but I guess everyone enjoyed the movie? heeee. we had to go from gadong to kiulap 'cause gadong was fully booked and thankfully, there was still a show playing and seats were still available at kiulap :D

heeeeeee. as I were!
goodnight lovie dovie :D

care less.

2009-12-01T01:31:00.004+08:00

moka's many faces :P

I made a cover just now, but then the audio isn't as good as it will be if I record myself in the store room just next to my room :P but then, I would seriously be in trouble 'cause my everyone is asleep now and I wouldn't want to disturb a good sleep. so I think I'm going to record it again tomorrow and take today's as practice. hee.

and I get to spend time with my Nbaby todaaay :D yeeeee, very happy with the long talks and all :D anddd, will be updating tomorrow, I think I'm gonna collapse now :P

night, readers and bloghoppers :P:D
loveee.

greddddddd.

2009-11-23T19:56:00.002+08:00

:D
an update for today.
yess. ive been spending alot of my time on the pictures.
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just incase you dont know, the slightest, tiniest thing could change my mind.

comfortably confused.

2009-11-21T09:36:00.003+08:00

I did these two at work yesterday, I skipped my breaks because of this, but it was all good. I pretty much love the outcome of these two, this is not the best that I can do, I know that, all I need is more practise :D I hope you like 'em too, because it will surely make me happy. ehhe. nadawah.

today is my off day. I don't have plans later, probably just gonna go to Keem's place and watch how sexy they play PingPong, haha.

and I feel much better today, eventhough I still have a little cold. hehe.
have a great weekend! :D
love.

Mall J!

2009-11-19T22:11:00.003+08:00

Eera @ Mall J.

I hope you like this. you look totally gorgeous next to the beautiful horse, it really suits you. I will keep updating for you, okay? I'll try not to keep you girls wait really long. loveyou!

ps. you can have the original size the next time you see me.
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mistakes are still obvious but I'm liking the whole idea. I am not looking forward for perfection, but satisfaction is what more important to me. I can't say I'm 100% satisfied, but it's good enough for me. no, I am not that good in editing or manipulating, nor that I have someone to teach me and point out my mistakes :( but having a few people liking my works really mean big to me. I've gotta improve with detailed editing :| and I am so lazy to look for tutorials :( yikes.

bytheway, FOLLOW ME on twitter :D I am active there. heee.

goodnight :D

dont push lucks.

2009-11-19T12:29:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday, Ayah.
and Happy Belated Birthday, Abang.
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woah. I stayed home yesterday, tucked myself in bed, all day. doing nothing, just lying down and feeling weak and staring at the empty space. I wasted my precious time resting, I just missed a day :( luckily, Awan came to see me and made my day :D

I'm still feeling heavy today, but I had to go to work, I was hoping to skip another day but I had 9 hours of sleep lastnight and that should be enough for me to go through today. I really dont wana push my luck, cause I'll be needing it next time :) 5 hours to go, I wonder what I'm going to do later, lastnight I avoided my laptop 'cause it was giving me headaches. I hope to get better so I can smoothly do my editing works later. hee.
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yknow, imaginations take us to the places we wana go, the places we wana avoid, the places weve been. imaginations can be both lovely and deadly. I'm just saying. cause other than that, imaginations can be the best therapy.

have a good day, readers :D

work time!

2009-11-17T22:58:00.003+08:00

using only CS3.

will keep updating. I know you girls can't wait for the pictures, I'll do my best okay?

and again, for the 'I-can't-remember' times of the year, I'm feeling unwell again. I guess my immune system isn't as strong as it used to be, even my blood pressure is below average :| yikes.

i should rest now :) goodnight world.
if anyone happens to see the meteor shower, tell me, okay? :D
love.

hearts can change

2009-11-15T23:21:00.002+08:00

It's amazing what one person can do. Some people build you up just to bend and break you. Some people bring out parts of you that you had no clue existed. All throughout life, we meet people and every single one of them brings something to us, gives us some sort of purpose. We come across people that will hurt us so incredibly much that it seems unbearable to go on with our lives, but the truth is, we can overcome anything we want to if we believe in it enough, if we have faith in ourselves, in who we are. The most important thing in life is to find yourself. Know who you are at all times and stand by that for the rest of your life. No one has to the right to tell you who you are and control your life, 'cause it's yours. Your life is meant to be lived by no one else but yourself. We sometimes let people get the best of us, destroy us and change our opinions on what we believe is true. Only you know what's right for yourself. You have the power, you make the choices and you learn. Each experience we go through in a life is a lesson to be learned. We all make mistakes. Why is that so hard for some to understand? No one should be judged by the mistakes they have made. It's past news. Everything happens for a reason, and without the hard times, how would we ever realize our true strength? It's only through a time of suffering when we realize how strong we truly are inside, when we realize how much we can actually put up with and deal with before we eventually break.

copy and pasted :)
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photo taken at Keem's during jamming :P

I finally had a jamming session with THERMALcollision's and Azzi. It was great to finally feel like home again :) I miss you guys so much, I'm hoping to get back on track with you guys and Ash too when he gets back. see you guys again next week :D

I still don't feel like updating much. so, until now. I'll get back to you guys when I feel like it, I know I have a lot of things to share, the timing isn't right, that's all.

Goodnight beautiful people. may all of you have a sweet dream and a good sleep.
love.

Tsas :D

2009-11-11T03:51:00.003+08:00

Happy belated 19th birthday! :D
I'll see you Monday!